Do you have depression

Words unmentioned having the intention of being unheard, Do you have perpetual thoughts, vague like a fantasy.
Are you wondering if what you see in your beclouded memories is authentic?
Or just distorted dreams that are like plastic memories...
Do you think of that special person every night gradually worshiping them like they're your everything, but you know that they have a special person they think about and guess what...It isn't you.
Do you subtly change to show your undiscovered worth in this meaningless life??
Do you have intrusive thoughts that consume you and rip you apart?
Do you have bladeless razors hidden away, failed attempts it tempts you to make wounds that penetrate all the way through?
Do have no tears left to cry because of the underlying pain buried too abstract to see.
Do you lack emotion are your eyes empty and characterless, piercing others as you stare deprived and desperate for ecstatic and cheerful eyes?
Do you relate? Do you understand this pain I go through?
This is what it feels like to be depressed....