Nothing

What an awful feeling.
I don´t want to get used to it
but I just can´t do nothing
to not feel this way.
I just have to let it pass...
sometimes it takes hours,
sometimes days,
but god how i hate feeling like nothing.
Am i really nothing?
I don’t want to be nothing.
I want people to know me.
To love me.
I want them all to like me
but how would they like me
if i don’t even like them.
Could it be their fault?
Or is it just me again?
Nothing is about me, yet i always feel like it is.
Am I really that selfish?
To feel like nothing, yet everything is about me...
Or maybe nothing is about me.
I like pretending like it is.
The problem here is...
Me.
No one but me.
I always have to blame someone
for whatever that happens.
The only person to blame here is me.
I don´t deserve to be someone.
As much as I don’t want to be nothing,
I guess i will always stay the same.
Nothing.