The saddness the hole in my heart.

The saddness it hides like a thief. Never showing just when  im weak.    I have no idea when it will take me.     I feel like a bomb is going off and blood dripping from my back no relief no surcase. I see a anime girl die a gruesome death and i see her body again lifeless and feel like screaming in pain. No one hears my screams or cares. The saddness is hard to say for it is so close to my center. So i cant push it away or lose it. Once it starts the screaming and tears follow i am helpless. The saddness  is a punishment i have no weapons to stop it. Can you forgive me for being so weak.