Analysis of The funniest joke.

Shattered like broken glass
Feeling weak like a small strand of stamped grass
Was I wrong ?
Was I really not created to belong ?
I always wrote that my story was a sad song
My poems only describe a sad tone
Was my thoughts really right ?
Were you not worth the fight ?
Was I the resemblance of darkness ?
And you were the light
Or were the roles swapped ?
Was I actually bright ?
But in your darkness trapped
So why did you wake me up ?
Why didn't you allow my small heart to cry for joy for once ?
To happily hub
Was my wounds so easy to be opened ?
Was my heart so fragile to break ?
Was my love not large enough to create an even small lake ?
Was my everything that easy to take $
Was I a dreamer ?
Who was easily manipulated by a schemer
Was I so easy to tame ?
Were you fake laughing at my jokes ?
Was I the funniest joke ?
But why does it sound lame?
Why Just why did you enter my life ?
Why did you give my cold emotionless heart hope ?
Why did you make it feel that spring finally came ?
Why just why ?!
Is it the same ?
Me blaming you
When I'm the only one I should blame
Why did you trust again ?
You love spending in vain
You love to use your heart tears
To give others rain
You just enjoy the repeated pain
Are you even sane ?
It was just another story and amongst the characters
You weren't the main
I have to actually thank you
For making me once again doubt
To stop feeling stout
To stop throwing blame
It's my own decision my own misery my own shame
I always thought I was funny
You made me realise
That as a joke
I'm even funnier.