Analysis of A silent cry

Even when I'm dreaming i still stress
                             If it wasn't for reality, I'd fantasize the best
Go to sleep and wake up with same shit on my chest
        Wishing I could go back to sucking milk out the breast
Forgive me father if I release my rage
      It was untamable, so it excaped out of it's cage!
(Do to a corrupt captivaty: That's what all this pain instilled in me. I did as a child, and still to this day! Praying 4 sunshine, hoping to finally leave the past behind. Dawg it's blowing my mind, ain't no need to lieing! Ready to take my destiny in my own hands! I'll never open my eye's again. So ahead of time is when i will repent!! Will the world wonder where i went? Or even wonder how my life was spent! I doubt it, they could careless. Even if i made it they'd never really she me, only what i can and could of done for them. So from this day forward I'm living for me!