Analysis of My Sacrifice

I stopped thinking of those words you said
So that I can go to sleep
Sleep before I lose my head.
Its just me,  Im all alone
Why can't I be loved?
That answer I knew, would forever remain unknown.

With the pain clenching in my chest
I give up,  I cant take anymore.
I fell down hard,  hard on my knees.
Spilling my tears,  covering the entire floor.

I ask God,  is this it?
How can it get any worse?
Im so tired of fighting
Life without  his love is my fate, my eternal curse.

I failed to please
I wasted his life, wasted his time
Oh God help me bear this price.
Why did my heart have to be the sacrifice?

Im so tired, Lord Im broken.
I beg of you, let death come to me.
I cant describe  it, the pain cannot be put in words
Words that are left unspoken.
I paid my price, it was my hearts sacrifice.