Analysis of Nothingness

I have nothing, nothingness inside me
A weightless wrecked out creature
I’m valued to none, nobody cares for me
I am alone in a dungeon of hater and grace
My face all scrambled, I, a total mess
A word to talk with me is like
Putting your face to ditch
A rage to follow me and vengeance with me

I am afraid, to talk.
Coz when I talk I vomit fire, spikes and hooks
I am afraid, to react
Coz when I react, tears and agony pain and disgrace
I’m scared, scared to be me
Coz when I stare into life
I collect laughter, vague ocean of sophisticated dreams
Halted into a mirage of demobilized life
An artist with no arena to perform an act of play
A worn out skin just dried into desert sun
A chronic hot blooded amphibian drowned into the polar wind
Naked and yet fragile try to stay alive
When you desperately need to die

It’s that emptiness that resulting these suicidal tendencies
It’s those faded memories u recall some times, won’t let you sleep
It’s for those who lost their way and still need to walk an extra mile
Yet a life can be bloomed into the ditch
As a lotus in a ditch, fragile and still challenge you
“Come and get me if you can” it says.
And know yourself your life is that lotus in the ditch
Take it as you get it or get it as you want it