Analysis of Lost Soul
When he saw her he already knew just what he wanted,
Not to love or encourage but to control and possess her…
He first broke her spirit, and held her under water,
Then he loved her with insults about her body,
Then he loved her with insults to her personality,
Then he loved her with anger and manipulation,
He trapped her inside herself and her body was ruined while she tried to escape,
Then he slowly drained her soul and then left it on the floor,
He walked on and tripped over it thinking she was done,
He took everything she had and squandered it on his nothings,
He thought he’d wait for her body to die too, and he waited,
He waited and grew tired of waiting, so he started to hurt her more,
He’d yell at her how she was such a burden to his life,
He yelled, fuck, is this the rest of my life, this is my life now,
And she screamed back, no, but it is mine, this is my life, you can go,
He took the parts of her that were damaged and threw them at her,
He made himself the hero, and her the victim,
He made sure everyone knew she was the reason, she’s to blame,
He thought she was dying, and left her in her bed and waited…
BUT…
She said no, she said this is not how I leave this world,
She said, no more! I am not surviving all of that for this,
He got worried, her head was clearing, he doubled down,
Yelled at her for crying, yelled at her for needing love,
He swore and called her names and instantly forgot and denied it,
He told her she makes something negative out of everything,
she tried to hold on, she tried to make him happy while being herself,
She gave up too much, she gave up everything,
She lost herself, she lost her spirit, but she reclaimed her heart,
And she’s not giving it away again, the next will have to earn her love.
As she steps into the new day, she watches the sunrise.
She opens her heart to the beauty the world has to offer,
It’s really time to find out, to find it all out, who is she, what does she want?
She wants peace, she wants acceptance, she wants strength,
She gets up in the morning and dances around her bed until she smiles
And she won’t stop growing until it’s her time to say goodbye.
Written by
Nikki Easton
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Closest metre | Iambic heptameter |
Characters | 2,186 |
Words | 460 |
Sentences | 6 |
Stanzas | 2 |
Stanza Lengths | 36, 2 |
Lines Amount | 38 |
Letters per line (avg) | 44 |
Words per line (avg) | 11 |
Letters per stanza (avg) | 833 |
Words per stanza (avg) | 214 |
About this poem
After a 13 year toxic marriage I got sucked in by a covert narcissist for 17 years while a doctor drugged me and he emptied my assets and controlled my life until I took it back.
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