Analysis of The Leach Effect

Thoughts that i can't shake under pressure unsure even how to begin.
          Tired of the wish wash brain swelling under the implode that just explodes.
          Barring a burden that isn't even my own. A cursed past just needs to unlatch
            U r like the leach effect that is eating my soul. u call me a bastard child, when my mother is the devil...
           Looking for a father unclaimed til God made HIs present known. No more did i walk alone.
           But it is the demon in me that makes me lose my way. Gets in my head trying to kill and destroy me.
          U r like the leach effect that is eating my soul. u call me a bastard child. when my mother is the devil...
          walking my way with my Father since i turned it over. Feeling worthless i just keep in mind His right next to me keeping me steady.
           Guiding me in His way even when I'm missing. is this the disease inside running in my poisoned veins
           bringing me to my knees, but your wickedness comes out in me. so there I lay my God calls out to me as i begin,
           where do i begin. now im back to the begining. looking i see His face Rise My child let me carry u in the dark.
            just another refection of me looking back.