Analysis of I Am In Pain And In Vain I Struggle To Free Myself
CHARLES JONES
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I AM IN PAIN AND IN VAIN I STRUGGLE TO FREE MYSELF
I Am In Pain And In Vain I Struggle To Free Myself
I can see my face in the tears i strain to hold back,.
But to no avail
For i am drowning in internal puddles of hell:
I am in pain and in vain i struggle to free myself:
Each day i taste of happiness promised to satiate a starving heart.
Instead i am fed woes,
Worries,
Problems,
Stress,
And bottomless regrets,
So hollow my chest.
That once was a nest.
For a heart that no longer sounds the warrior's drum:
I am in pain and in vain i struggle to free myself:
I dream of things that have become the wind.
That cannot be seen,
Yet i'm haunted by the touch that once brushed my skin,
I long for the caress of understanding to strike my mind once more,
For my spirit to exhort that eternal blaze to burn down this porch of wormwood i've made.
In a hell i find myself looking up from amazed:
I am in pain and in vain i struggle to free myself:
I am besieged on all sides by rumors and lies,
Suffocating on the fumes of a scortched soul,
Bold the attack upon my sanity.
Such that the man in me would flee. but for the strength of purpose rooted in my being
THAT.
Prohibits fleeing in the face of adversity;
I am in pain and in vain i struggle to free myself:
My vision is tainted by mental strains.
Whose intent
To crumble the foundation i stand apon,
Wildly i strike out at forces that mount against me.
Ivy thoughts encircling this private box of shame,
Squeezing every ounce of idiot actions to rain down upon you,
I shall spawn a new life of nightmares whose twilight attract only fools to see:
I am in pain and in vain i struggle to free myself:
I take hold as the cold shiver of reality rattles my bones,
Tentatively i stand.
A man.
Whose fall from grace has all but consumed me,
For lonely is the existence for a witness of truth.
Whose cries are heard only by the darkness who swallows them,
Deep is the abyss of choices i've fallen into.
With no light to guide my sight
Blindly seek my way out:
I am in pain and in vain i struggle to free myself:
I am cursed with the wisdom of life's continuim of mistakes,
A stake in evolution i can no longer claim, For doubt has rotted my brain.
And blood stains my hands with foolishness.
Leading me down the path of damnation!
I cringe at my binge of selfishness, that exhume my ways.
While i hunger for sufferings endured:
I am in pain and in vain i struggle to free myself:
I stare at walls in empty halls of worship. Whose praise has elluded me,
Hearing the wails of ships whose sails have long been lost at sea,
Redemption is beyond me.
A myth upon the lips of the unworthy:
I am in pain and in vain i struggle to free myself,
From the oppression of expectations.
Scheme | axB B xxx B x xxxxx cc x B x d x x x x B x x exx e B xxd e x f e B a xx e xx f x x B x x xx x x B e e e e Bx |
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Poetic Form | |
Metre | 11 10 1101001110111 1101001110111 1111100111111 11101 1111000101011 1101001110111 1111110010110101 011111 10 10 1 010001 11011 11101 10111101011 1101001110111 1111110101 11011 111010111111 1110011010111111 111010110101111111111 001111101101 1101001110111 110111111001 1001011011 1001011100 110101111101110100110 1 0101000110100 1101001110111 1101101101 101 1100010111 1011111011011 1010100110111 101001110010111011 11101111110110111 1101001110111 111101101101011 100011 01 1111111011 11010010101011 11111010101101 1100111011001 1111111 101111 1101001110111 1111010111101 0100101111011111011 011111100 1011011010 11111110010111 1110110001 1101001110111 1111010111011111 10011111111111 0101011 01010110010 1101001110111 100101010 |
Closest metre | Iambic hexameter |
Characters | 3,169 |
Words | 641 |
Sentences | 23 |
Stanzas | 46 |
Stanza Lengths | 3, 1, 3, 1, 1, 5, 2, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 3, 1, 1, 3, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 2, 1, 2, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 2, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 2 |
Lines Amount | 63 |
Letters per line (avg) | 34 |
Words per line (avg) | 9 |
Letters per stanza (avg) | 46 |
Words per stanza (avg) | 12 |
About this poem
About the pain of Expecting love loyalty and or support from others
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Written on December 12, 2013
Submitted by charlesjonesnkp on May 22, 2022
Modified on March 05, 2023
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