Analysis of Lost in darkness

Lost in darkness..my heart feels shattered and my mind is cluttered...I have been strong for so long..I feel my strength slipping away...I do not know true love yet but I certainly know what deceptions face looks like...I find that I cannot even gather myself enough to make sense... of this shit show I'm in yet ask myself how did I find this place again? I swore you were gone for good, but here I face you again..I am to old to be in this ugly place of hurt and sadness...I no longer trust my own judgements..I will not give up when there is always light, at the end of darkness. It appears when the sun rises and a new day begins..I am to strong to stay in this place and will wash all the darkness away and learn to love myself once more.