Analysis of My Father and the ‘In-between Me’
For years I have had
this all consuming nightmare.
Dreading his demise
when I am still alive,
I am in a quagmire.
I cannot bear the thought
that he is no more.
How can I live
when he leaves
this world and
leaves me all alone
how can this I even mourn?
I am thirty five,
I still feel like a child.
I was a baby still
to my father when he was alive.
He used to call me ‘my princess’
His love for me was beyond excess.
Has he now passed away
no warnings , no bye byes?
I am cowering with grief,
I cannot bear it alone,
his love for me felt so brief,
despite being beyond excess,
I was always his princess.
I loved him so so much.
Nothing in this world
meant me more dear
I am cowering with grief
how can I bear this mischief
all alone now in this world,
I cannot bear the thought
of his demise,
but the only solace left is
that my love as a daughter
for my father will endure forever.
I am cowering with grief,
how can I bear this mischief?
Suddenly, what is this
out of me that I see?
Who is that ‘In-between Me’?
Who are those standing
round that grave staring
out of me that I see?
I see tears rolling down
my father ‘s eyes.
I can see those tears
even behind his glass,
I think I can even hear his prayers.
I see this spectre in a spectacle
and wonder what is this miracle,
not only can I see my father
but also my friends in a circle
and Adam and my sister in a thrall.
Suddenly I have this epiphany
Suddenly I am at peace with me
that I never knew before.
Suddenly I realise I never
need to worry about nightmare
of my father’s demise
or anyone else for that matter,
I am no longer in a quagmire,
I am redempted for ever.
My name was Brahmani
my father and all those who love me
always and even now call me Bonnie,
because I was such a loving bunny
and now this bunny is happy
and she is at peace finally.
Scheme | xabcd Efcxxgx cxxchh xbIgihh xjxIKjEbxddIK xLlmmL xbnxn oodox llfdabddd glllll |
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Poetic Form | |
Metre | 11111 110101 10101 111101 110010 110101 11111 1111 111 110 11101 1111101 11101 111101 110101 111011101 11111110 11111011 111101 110111 1110011 1101101 1111111 0110011 111110 111111 10011 1111 1110011 1111110 1011011 110101 1101 10101011 1111010 1110101010 1110011 1111110 100111 111111 1110011 11110 11110 111111 111101 11011 11111 100111 111110111 1111000100 010111100 110111110 110110010 0100110001 1001110100 100111111 1110101 10011110 1110011 111001 11011110 111100010 111110 1111 110011111 101011110 0111101010 01110110 01111100 |
Closest metre | Iambic trimeter |
Characters | 1,772 |
Words | 369 |
Sentences | 21 |
Stanzas | 10 |
Stanza Lengths | 5, 7, 6, 7, 13, 6, 5, 5, 9, 6 |
Lines Amount | 69 |
Letters per line (avg) | 20 |
Words per line (avg) | 5 |
Letters per stanza (avg) | 140 |
Words per stanza (avg) | 37 |
About this poem
Love, loss, grief, melancholy, family, salvation
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