Losing all my faculties

As everything crashes down around me,
Left alone to pick up the wreckage of my life
I lived my life by the sword,
And so I die by the knife

No one to blame but myself,
I knew what I was doing to me
Shackled by these chains,
And the whole time I thought I was free

I'm losing all my faculties,
I've lost almost everything I love
I feel like I've been shit on everyday,
And wonder why I can't look above

It doesn't get any easier,
It grows harder everyday
I can't believe what my life has come to this,
I'm at a kid for what to say

I tried to just give up and die,
I'm better off being alone
Everything is getting to me,
I feel like just another clone

I do not want to be anymore,
I wish my life would just go
Don't even glance at me,
 Because I am seriously shit to blow

I pray to God that I won't wake up each morning,
I can barely even get by
Everyone I once loved has abandoned me,
So I won't even bother to try