Brought up in hatefulness

Hate me just like the enemy can
Mad like a bull, equally insane
Don't forgive cause it makes me feel bad
Why won't you hate me for all tears you shed?

I can't understand , I'd accept a curse
But not your kind smile, it just makes it worse
Something is wrong, how can you smile?
Are you pretending or you really feel fine?

Hate me just like my father used to
Build it like him, didin't know when  it grew
Maybe I'd feel better See? how egoistic
I never knew you could be so optimistic

I can't understand, you should think twice
Why won't you listen to my only advice?
Even if you won't I am gonna hate
Cause I hate this pain I somehow create