Feelings1

The reason I am understanding all of my wrongs is because I want change but I always make a big deal out of it is because I'm scared of how I'm going to feel I am doing this because I am scared I just want others to be happy and to be honest I don't know why I just feel like I need to make them all happy before I make myself happy I am no God i am no Jesus I want to make them not scared of what's to come but I am I don't know what to expect I am just wanting to go back to rehab because I felt like I had a purpose there and I am ready for recovery im just trying to escape how I feel because if I break this last time I will be a reason to be scared of I told my counselor I am scared I just hope my hower power forgives me and death for all th pain