BANG!BANG

BANG! BANG!
There is this hammering in my brain, telling me I'm going insane.
This voice so benign, blurring the lines.
Dripping acid, turning right to wrong.
Screaming FAKE IT! everything is okay, as it shows pictures of a bloody blade.
DRIP! DRIP! my vision fades.
The rush was worth the pain, till I hear that halo ring.
For awhile there is hope, for a moment there is reason
Showing me what was created, telling me to tighten thy womb of mortality  
Grasping to hold on to reality.
YET! it's slips like a serpent through red slicked hands.
Slithering staing the path of confidence.
Turing into intoxicated self-loathing
WHEN WILL IT ALL END?! I scream from the bowls of darkness.
Just to hear the echoing ring of nothingness
This pengalim swings for my eternity
Sky's of blue turning into a sickening green.
Hands around my throat death feels me breath.
He's just a tease, he loves to hear me plead.
On my knees, hammer in hand
BANG! BANG!