WHAT COULD HAVE BEEN

I wonder why
Every summer now, we go through this
I think back to the picture we took together
Which I had captioned:

"Summer love... Haha jk... Unless?"

And I think that must be what's done it
I think I made you love me too much
I think I was too broken to love you back
And I think that someday we could
Be really good friends
If only for a brief period,
Like always.

Always changing our minds
Always saying,
"Never again."
Until it happens again
And we're back to communicating.
Back to this sick song and dance
We've been tangoing for about 2 or 3 years now.

You were drunk when you called me,
Told me later that
You didn't even expect me to pick up.
Isn't that so funny?
How you think
It's easy for me
To ignore you?
The woman I wanted to marry?
Proposed to mid-sex like a fantasy?

Lost to some snaggletooth asshole?

You only called because you were drunk
And because he was getting married.
"It's not even worth being that upset over," you said
Yet it's worth calling me,
Disturbing my night over?

We need to leave each other alone
Our memories of the events that have
Unfolded between us
Are skewed and individual
We may never find closure
We may never come to an understanding
And with that idea in mind

Maybe it is best we go our separate ways
And try our best to forget
That that could have been
"Our wedding".