A feeling of existence

With this pain I hold
Free me from this misery
Heal me from my burdens

As i shed tear drops
As i pretend to be okay
My worry is not whom will ask me if i am okay or who will notice my absence

I have pain in my heart I cannot express
I feel a dark cloud covering my "happy" moment
I am tired of pretending
My only honest peace right now is through music

I wish I could rush the days and pain
Away but I can't, so why pretend?

My state of mind is not okay
Crying to sleep won't help either
Rip this person I have become apart

I feel lost in my own body
My identity has been robbed
As I move to the beat

Does my absence bother you?
I feel incomplete
Call it a change of season I guess
I can try but that part of me, you knew would never come back
She's gone