Not to quite not to loud

do you always talk to much
The sound of that question that rings in my ear
It’s like I was involved but feel the need to disappear
I don’t mean to talk to much it’s my fear
But I can’t seem to stop when someone who makes me happy is near
 why are you so quite
The question weighs on my brain
If I say something to loud will I be a pain
Will I sound to loud louder then a train
 I never talks anymore
I wonder why
The thought of speaking makes me sick
It makes me want to cry