I have

i have stood atop the mountains and at the level of the atlantic ocean
i’ve seen the leaves fall onto the hillsides and the waves crash into the eastern costal flats
i’ve felt the cool mountainous air blow through the valleys and the warm ocean air flow through my hair
i have watched as the squirrels played so carelessly in the tall oak trees and the dolphins jumped over the caps in the ocean
i have stood atop of the rafters of the highest buildings in this small town and sunk into the deepest parts of the sea
i have tended to have the biggest fault of being the kindest to complete strangers but meanest to my dearest friends
I have care so deeply for people but my actions sometimes make the impression that i couldn’t give a damn
i have had the greatness of life flows through my veins and ive still felt a filth in my bones i can’t seem clean or change
i have had a kind kind loving heart and i’ve been out for the blood of people who have wronged me
i have made the best decision in my life that have improved it beyond my wildest dreams but have made the worst decisions that haunt me in my sleep to this very day
i have had the perspective of optimism like everything is going to be okay and i’ve had the feeling of life is over for me and at stale mate
i have seen the joy in the small things like hugs, kisses, slow dancing, and holding hands but sometimes they don’t feel like enough
i have felt sunday’s as a day of welcoming but lately they just another day in this busy schedule of life
i have felt like there is always another side to the words “i have” and ive felt like it doesn’t even matter