You said you were my family

You said you were my family and now I have no home.  
You said you loved me but then you made me feel alone.
You said I was your best friend but you never listened to me  
You said I was the best thing that happened to you but then you degraded me.
You said you wanted the best for me but talked bad about me to your friends. You said I made you better but yelled at me to no end.
Your words so piercing, the noise so loud, crying and crying but you never heard a sound. Consumed by your own anger all you heard was your own voice, as my heart was breaking slowly you made your choice.  My spirit broken, my soul lost, I never thought my love for you would come at a cost.  Emotionally disconnected is why you were getting rejected. Tears building up inside of me and not knowing why, the smallest things would make me want to cry. Crying myself to sleep became a normal thing, showing no emotion, losing the real me.  My stomach burning, pacing the floor, walking on eggshells happened more and more. Little by little losing more of myself, all my needs being put on a shelf. You controlled what I did, how I did it, and how I should feel about things.  You never cared about my goals and dreams.  Where was your support when I needed it the most? Whenever I needed you, it seems like you went  ghost.  Being there for you through everything good and bad, but you couldn’t be there for me and that made  me so sad.  You said you were my family
Written by Mary Gonzales
May 2022