You and all the warm seasons

Weather starts getting warmer
And the flowers start blooming
Taking in the embrace of the sun's warmth
That’s when i remember
I remembered our summer
I still think of you
 I look at all the stars and sunsets
And when i told you
You are all the stars in the sky and every perfect sunset
Brings me bittersweet thoughts of us
I just wished you’d book a one way plane ticket out of my mind
Knowing you’d crash your plane into my heart
I don’t hate you
But i wish i wasn’t stuck in this cycle
Where days you appear in my dreams
And days you appear in my likes
Our memories surface in my waterfall of a million thoughts
Places we’ve been together that i still visit
i get nervous i'll see you again
I act like i don’t want to
But i do
I just wish i could talk to you
And i don’t know why
I don’t know why i can’t leave you in the past
 i can’t help but think
Do you think of us too?
It would kill me to know you aren’t
It wouldn’t be fair
They say how they left you was your closure
Wishing that was enough for me
Because to me it seems like you never left