Why is it So Hard

Why Is It Hard
To find someone that really likes you
One that is not fake and controlling
One that wants you for you and not who they want you to be
Why Is It Hard
To get a boy to make the first move
To not make you feel like a complete idiot for thinking that they could ever like you back
Why is It Hard
To feel like you are  loved at your worst and at your best
To forget the things that you hate about yourself
To live up to other expectations
Why Is It Hard
To hear God tell you
what's right and what’s wrong
Who the right one is for you
Why Is It Hard
Why Is It So Hard
For someone to feel something for me without seeing what my body looks like
Not to be used for pleaser
Not to be used in general
But to be loved
So
Why Is So Hard
For others to see me
For me not to be angry
For me not to hold in things and let them out
Let them out
Hold it in
They cant see your hurt
No one cares if your cut into a million and one pieces because you keep on giving your heart to the wrong guy
The snakes
I’m their prey
I’m trapped and then killed
But then Why Is It Hard
Not to be delusional when a guy says I'm pretty
And all they care bout is my body
I call myself a people pleaser
But in reality, I’m desperate
Why Is It Hard
To get that movie-type of relationship
One that makes me feel happy
But will I ever find that
It’s Hard
But why does it
Why is it Hard
The real answer to that is no one knows
But I'm going to find out
Why It’s So Hard