Anxiety

I'm sorry for bargaining with your heart
When I knew, I was the coward.

 I'm sorry for letting you drown alone
without calling for help or the time, I made
You hesitate after your decisions.

I'm sorry that I didn't trust you and said
That they'd use you, I shouldn't have betrayed you.

I'm sorry for all those pains you had to endure,
for shoving your scars into your flesh and bones
so that it couldn't be seen,
So that you'd look clean.

I'm sorry for being within you