DARK, WHEN AM I GOING TO SEE HER?

I am lost in the eternal darkness, with no family, no friends, nothing …, just darkness and me.
 All I can hear is dark, all I can see is dark, all I can speak is dark, and the only one who listens to me is darkness and its dark
The dark is my loneliness, my greatest fear, my sins, my demon, my cruelty, my dreams, my darkness is it me and only me?
The entire burden I have given to this world is full of darkness, the dark and its darkness manifest me to my death.
How my I? What am I? Why am… I the one?
And a question still arises to me till my grave
Am I going to see her?