Fall Back Forward Repeat

I long for freedom
From being locked in the past
So I throw away the key cuz
Like Orpheus
I can’t stop myself from looking back

Me, I ignore the facts
Place you on a pedestal
This is a sweet teenage fantasy
Thoughts of me and you under a canopy
you can bet Imma snatch that ecstasy
Close my eyes to avoid consequence
Ruminate, attach, latch
my favorite sequence
Regret, forget, but I digress

No no, wait

One, two, three
Too many thoughts built up
Four Five Seven!
My mental is fucked up
SixFiveNine
NO NO NO NO NO NO

Violent voices overwhelming me
Telling me I’m lazy
Saying I don’t do enough
Screaming at me to JUST FUCKING DO IT!
Like that’ll make me give a f*ck
How you gon say its tough love
Like it’s all good
Motherfucker, you make me wanna-

Wait Stop Stop!
Don’t share that
Rewind it back

My mind can’t decide when to be
Intensity heat I will feel
WhenIf I focus on the past tendse
To bring me to way back then

Time is a one-way street
So I fall back forward repeat
Pressing the pedal to push onward
My car switches reverse
My gears unfurl
Back it up back up backs up BackUp!
I hit potholes
I’ve already past
I drived too fast
speedup SpedUP SPEEDup SPEED UP!
Until I finally-