a boy who

i swear i’m not obsessive until i meet a boy who charms me all the way to thinking of him when the sky is just between sunset and dusk. who calls me all those names that make me feel so special. who gets me addicted to seeing his name appear on my screen. who refuses commitment to someone who would pack up all their things and run away with him at the drop of a hat. who leaves me for someone who doesn't even like him the way i like him. who i can't get over after almost two months. who texts me again after i see him at an event and i immediately let back in out of desperation and desire to be loved by him again. who leaves me on delivered for over two days right after and i realize i never should've gotten my hopes back up. i hate romance because it always hurts me, but i need it in my life of else i feel empty.