You broke me

        BREAK.                                            So they say I’m broken, I’m not myself anymore, have they thought this change could only be a cure, changing for better to upcome me, but in the mix betrayal is all that they see, accused of false accusations daily, put out as I’m going crazy, but look back at all the times you called me lazy, now here I am showing effort in life, turn my back an your the one holding the knife, the only one picking an choosing is you, why can’t you accept what I’m going threw? Say I’m selfish in every aspect, but do you really think that’s true??? Every move I make is for my kids an you! You’ve created everything I’ve become, taught me how to hide my pain, keep my feelings on the straight of tame, silence was the key for you many times, did I ever accuse you of breaking relationship crime? Your the one throwing my name to the dirt, do you truly understand the hurt? Every word an all your hate, welcome to the creation of your soul mate, I never doubted any dream you had, but first step out for me an this all turned bad, I’m not happy with where we stand, if I had known this was where I never wanted us to land, I’m selfish you say an your the bully, before you accuse understand the situation fully, you got me here turned on me many times when I needed you there? Do you know how many times I have questioned your true status of care? Do you enjoy watching me fall? With laughter behind me, not only from you but my kids eyes to what they see, how can you not understand this is killing me! You say pill popper is who I am, please explain! The only thing I take is you to blame, depression is real an that’s something in me you created time after time, I fell, I fall I break here an there, but to call me crazy is that really fair? You have no idea the shit built in my own head, an the thoughts that rush as I lay to go to bed, you stepped out this round, so emtpytiness is now found, I ask myself did I do this, but in reality is it even me you miss?