What the bad feels like

Silent like a pin drop
Leave me alone please stop
My head hurts I need to try
I feel like I'm going die
My throat is getting red
The pounding is loud in my head
I can't yell anymore
I wonder what we're doing this for
I have apologized
I have forgiven the time
I have tried to move on
I'm now pretending to be strong
Your words cut my heavy heart
I want to quit, I want to stop
My words coming out way too fast
I don't even in believe my trash
Waiting on my mouth to quit
Why am I talking shit?
I love her more then she knows
I just wish we hurry and grow old
I wonder how foolish we sound
The team we made is falling down
I want to give in or give up
I want to yell, "f*ck"
I just want a hug and kiss
But right now I know she's pissed
My heart is beating, how can this end?
I just want my world, my friend
I break down and cry in hands
I'm sorry to ruin our plans
Please love me I beg of you
I always love the things you do
Stop now and let's give in
You are always my lover, my heart and my bestest friend.

I'm sorry