AM I CRAZY

Am I crazy or not?
I vie to know the mystery of Life
But I wonder into gloom.
I am pinning to be pious and clean
But I put on an array of dirt.
I measure to be wise and sage
But I fall in ocean folly.
I crave to climb the mount top
But I jump into a deep sea.
I am panting to curb my mouth and tongue
But I become a parrot and Weaver bird
I want be a and dove
But I become a wolf and owl.
I yen to be a hard-working ant
But I snore in sleep deep.
I vie to fly like an eagle
But I crawl like a snail.
Am pinning to plant peace and bliss
But I sow sword and woe!