As we are

I almost fell in the shower, drinking with the light off
the light never was on
success and failure of myself and other has led me here
things I do retain no value to either
I want this I want that yet do this
id say this is my struggle or his
in reality its ours
getting out of bed is hard, nearly as hard as getting in it
knowing soon ill have to get back out
should I rhyme should i shout?
Neither matters
I'm not failing im not succeeding
so what am I doing

I woke up and attended a class for somthing i dont care for
i come home and do nothing for what i do
I ran after but stopped half way through
because I decided the reason im doing it wasnt worth my time
Ill tell you what is according to my actions
sitting on my phone looking at my money decline in hopeless attempts in because rich with no effort
watching other people do what i wish i was doing
but even they have their own difficulties...

I saw today Elon musk is worth 310 billion
to think of the hardship he must face to be worth as much
but i also think of the comparison to my wealth
I couldnt even give a penny and have it be the same percentage as it would be for him to give a million

This isnt even poetry just the thoughts of a 22 year old drunk in his hotel room far from the ones he loves
I got off track of what i wanted to say
but its no better fit for what i wanted to