you and him or i

I actually believed you, everytime.
Every fucking time, you lied
I even apologies when you were mad at me
For not moaning for you
For not fingering myself when i wasnt in mood
I even sex-chat you when i was in talking stage
I had something like boyfriend when i was sending you my nudes
He knew about you, not the things we have done but he still hated you
As much as i hate him now
I wanted to have you that time, i wanted him to be you
Or act like you but he wasnt, he was everything i hate
He was ginger, oh god how much i hate ginger
But you? You are brunette and have curly hair
How much i want my fingers run through your hair
As much as you wanted to f*ck me
Or you just said it because you were horny
And you knew you have me under your control?
Funny thing : im still under your fucking control.