Analysis of Truer Visualization

I hope to write a novel some day
perhaps it will hit me out of the blue
like a love story
but where will I find the words?
I could write a tale of tragedy
in the dred of night
I must have written a thousand novels
in my dreams
comedies, mysteries, suspence, romance
so I wake up dramatized
or I wake up in love
with a fictional character
she is the same girl who looks different
in every reoccurrence
and I fall in love with her every time
is she really out there somewhere?
if I never find her
I will write about her
the comedy, mystery, suspense, romance...
the tragedy of it all