Analysis of .heartbreak.
This pain I feel is so deep I could die.
If I said I didn't miss you, well, that'd be a lie.
I'll never fully understand why you hate me
you wanted everything from me, but don't you dare call it dating!
One minute you're my very best friend,
in the next, you can't stand me, I'll never comprehend,
how you switch it up on me so suddenly,
this character you've created of me, how'd I get so unlucky?
In my mind we'd always be around each other,
turns out you're just a demon undercover.
Made me truly think that we had a connection,
I could've never imagined this level of deception.
The complete & utter betrayal by you,
do you understand that your unpredictable moods are why I withdrew?
It wasn't because of hate or talking shit behind your back,
It was the love & support from you that lacked.
You know, you said a lot with your words,
but when it came to taking action,
giving me the cold shoulder is what you preferred.
I tried to be there for you, be a good listener,
but you came into my home & made me feel like a prisoner.
You wanted to stomp around & scream,
then expect me to want to get closer to you?
That seems a bit extreme...
Seems a little one-sided, seems really unfair,
You being kind & understanding toward me,
that shit was so rare! :(
You wouldn't believe how often I'd cry myself to sleep,
you made me feel unwanted & honestly,
you made me feel cheap.
After explaining everything I've been through,
I though you'd help me heal, no,
you just wanted me to heal you.
You ignored every bit of information I shared,
or you were actually taking notes on how to totally break me beyond repair.
How on Earth could you do all of this?
After doing everything for you & your son,
none of this makes sense!
So, now this situationship is down the drain,
you're not the only person involved,
you somehow don't see it? Don't care?
It's driving me insane!
These fucking kids got dragged through so much of this crap,
let them get to know each other
then you pulled the rug, making it all collapse?!
They spent nearly 11 months trying to adapt,
You think you're the only one who felt it but, to be honest, all of us felt trapped!
You're not allowed to come back into my life.
If it happens again, I'll just hand you the knife because every other day,
I'm just a dope whore in your eyes.
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Poetic Form | Tetractys (20%) |
Metre | 1111111111 11111011110101 11010011111 110101111111110 110111011 001111111001 11111111100 11001010111111010 01111101110 1111010010 111011110010 100100101101010 0011001011 1101110100111101 110011111010111 1101011111 111101111 111111010 101011011101 1111111101100 111011111110100 11011011 101111111011 110101 101011011001 1101010011 11111 1100111011111 1111010100 11111 1001010111 1111111 11101111 1011001101011 110100101111100110101 111111111 1010101111 11111 11111101 110101001 1111111 110101 110111111111 11111110 11101101101 1110110101 11101011111111011111 11011110111 11100111110101100101 11011011 |
Closest metre | Iambic hexameter |
Characters | 2,295 |
Words | 484 |
Sentences | 25 |
Stanzas | 1 |
Stanza Lengths | 50 |
Lines Amount | 50 |
Letters per line (avg) | 35 |
Words per line (avg) | 9 |
Letters per stanza (avg) | 1,754 |
Words per stanza (avg) | 437 |
About this poem
Written after about a year of emotional/mental abuse by a narcissistic "friend".
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