Analysis of Responsibility

I made you as a friend, which is over
Cause you made it tougher
I told you what I had been planning
But you keep banning
Y'know I wanna end it all
But you watched me fall
You said I am not allowed to say that again
Why don't you give me a chance?
To explain, to elaborate, to explicate
Are you asking me to accept my fate?
You blow the whistle on me
Told my parents about it
Did you know what I have been going through?
Do I look like a fool?
All this time I tried to know you more
But you? Turn the whole thing like a war
When you tried to explain,
You asked me not to complain
You said you had to do it cause it's your responsibility
How about my suicide probability?
Oh so your responsibility is to put me on the edge of the cliff?
So that your work requirement can be achieved?
I can tell you that YOUR RESPONSIBILITY DIDN'T MAKE MY LIFE BETTER BUT HARDER
MY THOUGHTS OF DEATH BECAME STRONGER
Now I don't know what to do
Recalling a sentence that said by you
"You chose to tell me. That means you wanted me tocall your parents. Don't put the blame on me. That'sclearly your fault. Think logically"
I know, I know
It's my fault and the blames' on me
I didn't blame you
I know your job is way important than me
I understand why you were doing that
But I can't stop thinking how you betrayed me
I thought we were friends
I thought you were the one I can rely, depend on
So I told you
Apparently, it's a wrong choice
Body shivers, heart pounding, head drowning
I'm not well. No one can quell
I don't wanna live
I can't relief
Hope this is my death note
I was too bold...