Analysis of Meaningful

Broken heart, all from the tales of a man warned,
How one stands without love to hold firm?
A bit of affection, a denser spirit feeling like a shadow
A distant part of myself hoping you are gone for good
Here I wonder if really all you are to me is a glimpse!?
A piece of a tormented child in me lies restless,
The game is played with intentions and all lead to hopelessness
A tease of a life I don’t really yearn for, that’s what you represent
From the firmament, I thought you were brought down for me
Hoping that you feel so that I could enjoy the displacement of my own rip,
I doubted all the tales I heard of a broken rip, for me you were mending mine
For a rip that would be my own would be more sacred than how you are
The shiner your smile gets the more distorted you become in my memory
 A soul unrecognizable to my own I have come to dislike it all
Issues I have harbored with grace by my side
Yet all you were to me was an endless stray of pain and torture
Your beautiful face destroyed by each word you ever spoke
Plain thoughts of you drew me in with meaningless intent.
Weaned at a young age, I stand in disparity
For I could never lay myself on an uncomfortable mattress you heart has become