Analysis of Drowning

i watched as the,
ticking sound in my wrist matching with my heart,
cold wrapping me up, freezing me as i breathe.
how painfully beautiful it is to imagine your hands wrapped around mine, lying beside me,
oh to be your lifetime writer,
do nothing but whispering words in your ears,
hearing your laugh as music,
but the words of deadmen hanging inside my mind,
screaming, whining, crying and aching to get into my world.
the distance of the clouds couldn't hold the depth of my despair,
spreading across the sky,
far beyond the infinity this love won't let me die,
but how could it die?
how could I run?
how could this end?
I've wrote these words as my hands trembled,
but my thoughts?
feeling desperate for more than i ever could have!
can you feel the wave of my ocean filled with agony? without a savior to pull off?