Analysis of I never did

You opened the door to the voices inside of me,
You said goodbye when I couldn't even fight for me ,
You loved me when I loathe me,
Fought with me for me, I was with no fears
But you left me with tears which I couldn't even cry for me ,
Sat in the aisle thinking did you ever lie to me
But you never did so
Still thinking do you miss me , still thinking you wanna kiss me ,
Chase me like I'm all yours,
Give me all the reassures,
Fuck all these procedures.. egoist bullshits
Maturities overrated,  with you in bed being dominated
This feeling of being sedated,
Even though I just I just medidatedddd

I don't really care about you now,
It's just you still matter somehow,
You crossed my mind today,
The fake scenarios on replay
That's also what happened yesterday,
Feels I did something wrong now I gotta pay...

So I gotta let you goo, cause it is what it is,
Gotta go with the floww, everything's temporary,
Cause forevers never lasted ,
When I look at you , fireworks never blasted,
You took me for granted,
Kept myself distracted and somehow I adapted,
Was there when you needed,
Whenever you pleaded,
And that's why you succeeded
To make me feel i needed you
BUT I NEVER DID !