Analysis of Accustoming to the lies

I started doing that,
way back
accustoming to the lies.
Always aware,
pretend to not care, trying,
accustoming to the lies.
Swallowing the truth like pills,
accepted your lying so that the conversations would dismiss,
Did all! trying,
accustoming to the lies.
Wish I didn't accustom that day,
the things would have been better this day,
My heart would not have to be burdened with the knowledge of your sins,
and it could reminisce the good things.
But it cannot,
because once it tried accustoming to the lies,
and it did accustom,
not to the lying
but to the crying!