Analysis of Why?

Why am I like this?
Am I programmed this way?
If so, then why?
Why do I keep encountering these unwelcome thoughts?
Why aren’t I plucky enough to truly say what I want to?
Why do I keep doing the opposite of what I am intended to do?
Why do I look the way I do?
Speak the way that I sound?
Why do I trip over my words?
Am I just meant not to speak?
Should I start staying quiet?
Should I live life without ever speaking a word again?
Then would I really be living?
Would I turn into a brainless being, like a jellyfish?
Yet why would I stay silent if I have so much to say?
Why would I sit and drown in a sea of my own words, if I can rise like I own the sea and expose the sea of those words that were never spoken to the world?
But then the question comes back,
Why?