Analysis of IT HURTS

I love you,
But yet, you don't look at me affectionately.
I miss you like crazy,
But yet, it seems impossible for you to feel the same.

I had tried to kill my love for you,
Over a thousand times in my heart,
Instead of dying,
It keeps showing it's willingness to love you more.
I had tried to push you away so many times in my head,
But you kept being stubborn and coming back more aggressively.

I want to stop thinking about you,
At the very least for an hour,
But it proved unsuccessful no matter how hard I tried.
It seems there is no peace for me.

Stop showing up in my dreams anymore,
Because in there,
I see illusions of you showing me affections,
I would try not to fall for it any longer.

It hurts in here (♥️my heart ♥️) like crazy,
Everytime the thought of you runs through me,
Like blood, I felt it even down to my veins.
Loving you might have been a bigger crime than I think,
Judging by the way the deities are punishing me,
Nevertheless, I still choose to remain a rebellious criminal.