Analysis of Smile

Smile by day
Yet cry by night
Marriage was supposed to be new
Sacred and pure,
A new beginning with you
Marriage pains & growth
Things began to renew.
Then a bomb hit
I wasn't able to handle it.
The new was tainted
Nothing was ever pure.
Infedelity from the start
A secret for many years.
My manhood crushed
Confidence withered,
Betrayed was what I felt.
Lies we were living
Truth never was clear
Tortured for years
Her mission accomplished
I walked the past years broken hearted.
Trying to forget, trying to regain.
Living with hate and resentment
Trying not to go insane
Trust was now gone
Tryin to live in contentment
Thinking was incessant
I look ahead to what's new
And hope one day we can be pure.
But for now
I smile by day
Yet cry by night.