Narcissistic Love

As I see through you taking in all of you I see why I feel so used by you, I hear your voice as you send these messages telling me things being passive aggressive I feel neglected not physically but emotionally you don’t understand my feelings bc you never took time to or maybe you do but you just don’t care I gave you my love physically emotionally and mentally you only gave yours see the past tense word it’s because you only bombed me with love until you showed who you really are, you’re such a good actor you played your role but with that love bomb came a tole on my heart pulling the strings me tryna realize what does this mean it means my heart aches with pain but I remain silent I remain silent on the things that irk me so much about you sometimes I feel like you drain me on purpose you love to see me sad bc somehow it gives you a purpose not to do better but mouth the lies that you rehearsed the lies are so sweet but dull some of the lies remind me of coal, why coal you ask? Bc they are dark and dull like a black rock a lump full of coal yes I love you a thousand times I do but how do Ik if your I love you is true bc do you truly love me even tho you say you do I think you only love me bc of what I can give to you but what would that make you? a narcissist who’s fallen in love