I Lost My Life For Nothing

Ehsan Sehgal is a Pakistani-Dutch poet and writer. He moved to the Netherlands in 1978 to avoid persecution during the General Zia era in Pakistan and has lived in the Netherlands since. Ehsan Sehgal began his literary career in 1967. His first publication was a novel, but his consequent books were…

I left my country
I came to a strange land
The strange city
The strange ways
The stranger people
The strange language
Even the strange surroundings
I felt alone
I missed my beloved ones
I wanted to gain my career
I desired to learn and know
The wonder of the world
For that
I faced and bore
And wore the painful time
I struggled and struggled
Even though
Time became, enemy of life
I stood firm, to win at every cost
I sold my heart, mind, and soul
In the hands of an opportunist,
And cunning and liar one
Who used me, years and years
I lost, my dreams, career,
And life for nothing, but pain,
Sorrow, sorry and tears
That one threw me out
After entirely breaking me
I was once again alone
Holding the passport,
With my broken heart, dream
Career and even life
I have not the control, on my tears
I cannot turn the time that I lost
I feel still a stranger
I miss you, oh my motherland.

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