Dreamer

If I
can dream
a dream of dreams
where every scene serene
and the only sound I hear
is the sound of your laughter
sweeter than the air I breath

I would sleep until infinity
nap
til kingdom come succumbs
to my reality in its totality
vicariously
seeing you as I
see you
my most beautiful
angel

I would die

if not for fear
of suicide
just to be by your side
again

just the two of us
like in the beginning

to hold your hand
to touch your skin
to kiss your lips and
gaze into your eyes
and dream

of what the future
may bring

I didn't tell you
I love you that day
the day God decided to take
you away
from me

I was busy
distracted

just the thought of that
destroys me completely

so I sleep
and I dream of what
could have been
of what we had

I sleep
and I dream
for its where I find
peace

it's where
I find you